The LIFE-GIVING journey of Infertility

Whenever we browse our Facebook news feed, and see beautiful babies of our friends, our hearts can't help but be glad; because a gift from God has miraculously arrived in their families. Miraculous, we say; because the creation of HUMAN LIFE will always be a miraculous work of God. In the words of the Psalmist, every Human Life is "fearfully and wonderfully made." 

I, and my wife, have been married for five (5) years and been trying to conceive ever since. But, our own efforts and perhaps, our prayers too, are not enough to reach GOD in the highest of heavens .  Month-after-month, we've been waiting in silent hope that our precious gift would come. Month-after-month, as well, our expectations are failing us, leaving us wailing and sobbing in the core of our grieving hearts.   

We, sometimes, though inappropriate, question GOD as to why such agony of waiting has befallen us... us, who has been open to life since we marry each other. We can only lament, and how I wish that our lamentations could pierce the merciful HEART of GOD.  But, is it wrong to lament?  Our answer is both Yes and No. YES, if we too much dwell on it leading us to despair. NO, if these lamentations would lead us to hope more in GOD'S timing, promise and grace. In our case, the more we lament, the more we become closer to GOD and the more we hope in His promises.  That conscious choice of developing closeness to GOD, we can say, is in itself a life-giving event in our lives and, rightly so, in the lives of the people around us. 

We may not have a child yet to care for, but we can still care through the needy. We may not have a child yet to love, but we still have each other to love and hold.  We may not have a child yet to comfort, but we can still comfort through the hopeless and depressed. We may not have a child yet to protect and fight for, but we can still do so through the oppressed.  In midst of this infertility struggle, and all other life-struggles, we could always choose to give life and share to the world the life-giving effects of following Jesus Christ.  

This passage from the Book of Lamentations (Chapter 3:19-22) perfectly describes our spiritual disposition when it comes to our struggle with infertility:

"I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail."